It feels like it must be a momentous occasion writing my first blog entry. Will I look back on this in days/weeks/months/years to come and cringe at how bad it is? Will I regret doing it? Will I take comfort from it? Will it provide me with the inner peace I wish I could find? Will it be the first step in a long road to recovery (or semblance of normality at least)? Only time will tell.
According to Voltaire,“Madness is to think of too many things in succession too fast, or of one thing too exclusively”. I wonder which category I fall into? Is it possible to be both? I think so.
So, I guess it makes sense to give you a bit of background as to why I'm writing this? In 2011 I started seeing a therapist. Actually, she isn't the first one I've seen. So far she has been the most useful. My journey into therapy starts much farther back in time (and I'm sure I'll ramble about some of that later on) but it seems like a good place to begin this story.
During therapy, she (I think I shall call her Pam) suggested I write a 'mood diary'. For those of you who may be unaware of this tool, it is a very simple way of charting your medication/sleep/any significant events and how they may link to your mood. Now I'm utterly hopeless at keeping written notes on things. On the other hand, I love technology. I'm known for being a bit of a geekette and so it would seem only natural to turn to technology to aid me with this. I intend to write this blog and to post a mood diary too.
I've decided to use this blog as a combination of friend/therapist/mood diary and confessional. I know that some of what I intend to write could be considered offensive to some and, for this, I apologise in advance. This blog is not for the faint-hearted. It is for those with an interest in the human psyche and what drives us to do what we do. I'd also like to make it clear that I am not trained in the subject of psychology (or any other medicine for that matter) and that my opinions are merely that; my own opinion. Oh, and whilst we are on that point - all content will be true to the best of my knowledge only all names have been changed to protect the anonymity of those I mention.
I welcome your constructive input, advice and/or the wisdom of your own experiences.
Great site about moods